Love is the essence of life

Life is the essence of my art.

 

My work reflects my everyday life

not like a mirror does

but like the surface of a rippling pond does.

 

 

I have always set out to create something purely visually beautiful, aside the message in my work. The art I make is new, while still working within traditions with its privilege, but utilizing the aesthetics, ideas, and concepts that I have come to by living in the world of this generation. Fine art, a visual art, which is developed primarily for aesthetic value and takes on meaningfulness on its own terms, is different from applied art that also has to serve some practical function. Beauty is like war in that it has a strong impact on our mind, only it is not destructive. The beauty I am talking of is sensual, affecting the mind, emotions, dreams, and the individual.

 

My art comes from a place of pluralism, or something close to the idea of being “between and both.” I see many problems in the world, and I think it is maybe because we are still living based on the premises of dualism and monism. One of my goals is to create works that lead the audience to engage complication and ambiguity. This is why I utilize optical illusions or clichés in my creations, to make work that gives totally different impressions of something that at first appears simple. A life has a beginning and an ending, it is simple and beautiful for any living creature, but it becomes more complicated as we realize things… and that is the beauty of being born human. Freedom of the mind is a unique human trait, and it should not be taken for granted.

 

I have a fear of the simplification that is offered with the convenience of living a modern life. I have a fear of the ignorance of the technology, that which makes life so easy but which I neither made nor know the fundamental structures of. I feel as society develops and stagnates, our individual inner lives become less unconditionally essential elements to the world. It is scary, and it is not beautiful; when something is too instant and easy, we no longer have the freedom or necessity to use the imagination and time to participate in society, or to be human. As a reflection on this aspect of the world today, I consciously choose a slow process of making work in which every single detail has delivered meaning and intention. 

 

There are many pressures and restrictions in our society, and it is difficult to confront the truth and meaning from the inside. What happens in society makes me believe that outside of the laws that are inflexible and man-made, free of the pressures of societies or governments, or any kind of restrictions or rules, is where I need to be, using instead own judgment and sense of justice to think and act. Making art is for me about action of making social statements with its own justice and judgments and responsibility. It is a way to take an active role in the world; asking questions, or realizing about something that matters, such as taboos and socially prohibited, forbidden, ignored, forgotten, or unnoticed subjects. Many of the figures in my work are closing their eyes or staring at the audience; whether they are dreaming or awake, they are facing the truth and themselves free of any great power that is unavoidably presented in front of their eyes.

 

There is one distinctive subject in my work, and which is about human mind and heart. It is especially related to strong power and influence we receive from beauty of a living being, that we, even take its life away for. The beauty could be physical or idea of rarity or monetary value. Human is creature of mind and heart and emotions. We are the only species that takes life of another life away for non-survival reasons: for sharing, collecting, showing, or preserving. There is an old says that beauty could shorten a life. What I learned from observing this peculiar but very humanlike acts, and by experiencing losses of lives, is that time is a law equal to any existing beings and it takes us altogether to now and to the future, everything exists, whether if they are dead or alive. Dead beings is not left or lost in time, they also follow the nature law, they also move forward as time forwards and with still-living beings. But another truth is, things die, things glow, things are born, things cannot really born again. We, and still take a life away: life of another: life of oneself. I want to project what I see, feel, experience, and wonder, about this, in my work.

© 2019  Natsumi Goldfish